Pet Peeve

Yep, as you can see I am in another one of my frantic "I have to be acting now" modes which happen fairly often.

I have a pet peeve right now... which is:

Filmmakers not sending me copies of the project we worked on together.

I understand that Unborn probably never got finished, and thats fine, because they gave me footage for my demo reel and thats enough.

However, I am still waiting to receive a copy of The Dropout which I know is finished because... I watched it. I would really really really really love to put some footage from that on my demo reel because I was really happy with my performance, but alas here I am all forgotten. They promised they would send me one, the promised profusely. Plus, just to add to my despaire (ok I'm not actually in despair lol but this is a blog post titled "pet peeve" so I feel like I have to establish an appropriate amount of outrage to live up to it) they still have one of my shirts which I left on set. They had promised to send it along with my copy of the DVD.

Now I am "waiting, wondering, hoping" ... yup

OK. Byebye for now, my dear four subscribers who probably don't even read this blog anyway, but hey... my blog entertains me and thats enough.

Chickens and Eggs and Crap

So you know the phrase "don't count your Chickens before the eggs hatch"
I am dwelling on The Vault role because I know that if I get it I will need to completely rearrange my life. I'm always willing to do that, but there is still one issue that I can't find a solution to. It is the same problem I always have. No car. I need a car if I want to make money... I need money in order to buy a car. In Wisconsin its fine because I can borrow my family's cars but in Cali there is just my aunt and uncle's cars which I can only borrow when they don't need them, which I'm sure they usually do. I think I would regret it if I didn't take a job if it was offered to me... I'm just not so sure how practical it is.

If I could get financial aid, then I would continue classes online with the UW. I would live with my aunt and uncle. I would need to fly to Florida in early November for my sister's wedding. I would be bummed to miss Dean's wedding so I would have to try to get back for that, or maybe not leave until after that (Sept 10).

See what I mean?? I'm thinking way too much about a job that isn't even mine.

I think what it comes down to will be if I can get transportation that is reliable and how many hours of work my role would include. I obviously wouldn't move the California for 3 months to film for an equivalent of 48 hours of work... but maybe I would... what with it being my passion and all, it really depends on if my family is willing to support me financially yet again, something they do far too often. :( ugh I don't know. All I know is I want it.

"Do not try to push your way through to the front ranks of your profession; do not run after distinctions and rewards; but do your utmost to find an entry into the world of beauty"

The Vault

SO, I didn't get the part in Inside, but I did get over 1000 likes and 30,000 views! Which was amazing and the 100+ comments were awesome.

Anyway, Rachel L is the one who won and she let me know about the show The Vault which she had also been recently cast in. It looks really cool, and in a way reminds me of Inside... what with the people locked in rooms and all. It looks really high quality.

I entered to be cast and I'm waiting to hear now.

If I did get cast it would mean some series rearranging of money and time. I could move to california and live with Angie and Mike (my aunt and uncle) but I would need a car... which I don't have. Also there are two weddings coming up, one in September and one in November so I would need to be able to fly back for those.

It would be tough... but I can't help but wishing it would happen, despite the fact that it would mean me being in another situation where I will have to borrow a lot of money.

Anyways, in the mean time I recorded a couple of monologues today. I actually just memorized them today too so they were a little rough but I'm happy with them. I figured I should give the Vault casting directors more to look at when making their decision. You can check them out at my youtube channel, which you can also find at the bottom of the page on here.

Wish me a broken leg!

"On this narrow planet, we have only the choice between two unknown worlds. One of them tempts us --ah! what a dream, to live in that! --the other stifles us at the first breath. "

Terrible

Ok. So PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE watch this and like it if you like it and share it with people. This is a situation where the number of viewers actually matters a bit. I really like the idea behind this film! I can't wait to see what comes from it. Maybe I will write a more coherent post in the morning when I'm not overly tired. Thanks!

On another note:
I know I know! Why do I always just get started posting regularly again and then ditch! Turns out it is hard to talk about an acting career when actually participating in one :)

So the student film is long gone. I had an AMAZING time and got to try out some things I had never been able to before, actingwise. I think I definitely grew as an actress from doing that film and the cast and crew were fantastic.

I am still waiting for my copy of the DVD! I need to watch it again and sort out which bits I want for a demo reel.

Anyways I will be posting again shortly.

One More

Hey there.

So I got the script for the student film. I can't wait to start working on it. I think it is a great script. There is a lot of crying on my characters part... which is always nerve wrecking. I can't wait to meet the cast and get started. I am nervous as always, but I am sure it will be fun.

I am almost done reading The Power of the Actor which is exciting. It was a really great book! It took a long time for me to get through it, but all of the information was really helpful.

At some point I am going to start posting videos of me performing a scene from a play. I will post a performance of the scene after applying each step from The Power of the Actor. More details on that later, first I have to analyze my actual script.

Thats all I have to say for now.

About Me

Hey! I made this video today, for new people to my blog and youtube channel. It just has a little bit of background info and whatnot.

Thanks!

Robin

Hello! So in the book Auditioning by Joanna Merlin, she talks about how it is almost impossible to tell whether or not you will get a part. You may feel like you had a great audition and never hear anything, or you may think you have a terrible audition and get the part. I had never had an experience with this. For the first two films I was cast in, and all of the films I wasn't cast in, my guess was usually pretty close.

However, I am pleased to announce that I WAS cast in the role of ROBIN in the student film in Chicago!

I really did not think I would be cast, so this is quite exciting for me. It is a much larger role than I have ever played before. I am actually nervous about memorizing my lines because I am out of the habit.

Right now I am still waiting to receive the script, but they hope to start filming soon. I have FINALLY finished reading the first half of The Power of the Actor by Ivana Chubbuck, so I am excited to analyze my script using her 12 steps.

ANYWAY,

I have a habit of watching my videos OVER AND OVER again.
In some ways I think this is a good thing, especially when it comes to performances. I think it is important to critique my own work, to be both my own biggest fan, and my own biggest critic. Watching my Transfers audition for the 1000th time I see which parts of my performance worked and which parts really didn't. I have also learned more about filming my own audition. I am both super proud of my performance, and super mortified. I think it is great... and I think it is horrible.

No matter what though, I plan to post more videos of me doing scenes and monologues, not to show off my talent, but to discover my weaknesses.

I have watched a LOT of Youtube videos of readings by others. There are some people who have posted several videos, but don't seem to have improved in their performance over the years of performing. Their performances fall flat, meanwhile, their video blog posts are completely engaging and make me want to watch more of them. I hope I don't fall into a rut like that. I want to look back at old performances and see how I have improved as a performer. I want to make progress.

I wish I had videos of myself performing when I first decided to be an actress. I like to believe my performances have improved. There was one particular Youtuber who reminds me of myself when I was younger. She managed to move to LA and pursue an acting career, and she is doing a great job going to classes and putting herself out there. Part of me is jealous that I wasn't able to do that when I was younger, but another part of me thinks that staying at home and dwelling on the craft has been good for me. Now I know, because of my 8 years of devotion that this is something I really want to do, for both good and bad reasons.

Good reasons:
-I love acting
-I love the abandon I experience when being someone else
-I love how each role teaches me about myself, as a performer and as a person.
-I love reading and learning about acting almost as much as I like performing itself.

Bad reasons:
-..ok so I love attention
-I would love to date one of todays many dreamy actors

So I will talk to you later!

Self-help must precede help from others. Even for making certain of help from heaven, one has to help oneself.

-Moraji R. Desai