Don't Tell Me

Hey soooooo I think I have kinda sorta figured out that I could in fact move to California for a few months, it would be really tough... but it would be worth it. "Dreams come true, not free" and all. It won't be easy but its my dream, thats the best and worst thing about actors, they choose to live practically destitute because they dream of living in the lap of luxsury . Irony.

I still have to figure out the car thing, but I think that if I can get a cheap one I am good to go. Now I just have to turn my $400 into $4000 and I can get that car that I was looking at... mmm yeah... probably not gonna happen. We shall see.

Whether it happens now or not, I know I will move back out there and start living the life I have been thinking of for 8+ years. I think its a good thing that when I think of that life, I think of hard work and keeping busy, not just dwelling on the hope of getting a "big break"

Over and out

Pet Peeve

Yep, as you can see I am in another one of my frantic "I have to be acting now" modes which happen fairly often.

I have a pet peeve right now... which is:

Filmmakers not sending me copies of the project we worked on together.

I understand that Unborn probably never got finished, and thats fine, because they gave me footage for my demo reel and thats enough.

However, I am still waiting to receive a copy of The Dropout which I know is finished because... I watched it. I would really really really really love to put some footage from that on my demo reel because I was really happy with my performance, but alas here I am all forgotten. They promised they would send me one, the promised profusely. Plus, just to add to my despaire (ok I'm not actually in despair lol but this is a blog post titled "pet peeve" so I feel like I have to establish an appropriate amount of outrage to live up to it) they still have one of my shirts which I left on set. They had promised to send it along with my copy of the DVD.

Now I am "waiting, wondering, hoping" ... yup

OK. Byebye for now, my dear four subscribers who probably don't even read this blog anyway, but hey... my blog entertains me and thats enough.

Chickens and Eggs and Crap

So you know the phrase "don't count your Chickens before the eggs hatch"
I am dwelling on The Vault role because I know that if I get it I will need to completely rearrange my life. I'm always willing to do that, but there is still one issue that I can't find a solution to. It is the same problem I always have. No car. I need a car if I want to make money... I need money in order to buy a car. In Wisconsin its fine because I can borrow my family's cars but in Cali there is just my aunt and uncle's cars which I can only borrow when they don't need them, which I'm sure they usually do. I think I would regret it if I didn't take a job if it was offered to me... I'm just not so sure how practical it is.

If I could get financial aid, then I would continue classes online with the UW. I would live with my aunt and uncle. I would need to fly to Florida in early November for my sister's wedding. I would be bummed to miss Dean's wedding so I would have to try to get back for that, or maybe not leave until after that (Sept 10).

See what I mean?? I'm thinking way too much about a job that isn't even mine.

I think what it comes down to will be if I can get transportation that is reliable and how many hours of work my role would include. I obviously wouldn't move the California for 3 months to film for an equivalent of 48 hours of work... but maybe I would... what with it being my passion and all, it really depends on if my family is willing to support me financially yet again, something they do far too often. :( ugh I don't know. All I know is I want it.

"Do not try to push your way through to the front ranks of your profession; do not run after distinctions and rewards; but do your utmost to find an entry into the world of beauty"

The Vault

SO, I didn't get the part in Inside, but I did get over 1000 likes and 30,000 views! Which was amazing and the 100+ comments were awesome.

Anyway, Rachel L is the one who won and she let me know about the show The Vault which she had also been recently cast in. It looks really cool, and in a way reminds me of Inside... what with the people locked in rooms and all. It looks really high quality.

I entered to be cast and I'm waiting to hear now.

If I did get cast it would mean some series rearranging of money and time. I could move to california and live with Angie and Mike (my aunt and uncle) but I would need a car... which I don't have. Also there are two weddings coming up, one in September and one in November so I would need to be able to fly back for those.

It would be tough... but I can't help but wishing it would happen, despite the fact that it would mean me being in another situation where I will have to borrow a lot of money.

Anyways, in the mean time I recorded a couple of monologues today. I actually just memorized them today too so they were a little rough but I'm happy with them. I figured I should give the Vault casting directors more to look at when making their decision. You can check them out at my youtube channel, which you can also find at the bottom of the page on here.

Wish me a broken leg!

"On this narrow planet, we have only the choice between two unknown worlds. One of them tempts us --ah! what a dream, to live in that! --the other stifles us at the first breath. "

Terrible

Ok. So PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE watch this and like it if you like it and share it with people. This is a situation where the number of viewers actually matters a bit. I really like the idea behind this film! I can't wait to see what comes from it. Maybe I will write a more coherent post in the morning when I'm not overly tired. Thanks!

On another note:
I know I know! Why do I always just get started posting regularly again and then ditch! Turns out it is hard to talk about an acting career when actually participating in one :)

So the student film is long gone. I had an AMAZING time and got to try out some things I had never been able to before, actingwise. I think I definitely grew as an actress from doing that film and the cast and crew were fantastic.

I am still waiting for my copy of the DVD! I need to watch it again and sort out which bits I want for a demo reel.

Anyways I will be posting again shortly.

One More

Hey there.

So I got the script for the student film. I can't wait to start working on it. I think it is a great script. There is a lot of crying on my characters part... which is always nerve wrecking. I can't wait to meet the cast and get started. I am nervous as always, but I am sure it will be fun.

I am almost done reading The Power of the Actor which is exciting. It was a really great book! It took a long time for me to get through it, but all of the information was really helpful.

At some point I am going to start posting videos of me performing a scene from a play. I will post a performance of the scene after applying each step from The Power of the Actor. More details on that later, first I have to analyze my actual script.

Thats all I have to say for now.

About Me

Hey! I made this video today, for new people to my blog and youtube channel. It just has a little bit of background info and whatnot.

Thanks!