Kicks

I am supposed to be studying for my two finals tomorrow, but you had to know that wouldn't happen.
Instead I wrote something... It will become a song once I learn how to play guitar haha, as of right now when I am stranded and guitarless I guess it is just a poem.

This is about one of my best friends, though not really. I would always stay up late and talk to him about my drama and he was a great comfort to me but meanwhile he was spiraling out of control himself and though I tried I couldn't really help him, he is a self destructive person.
So:

Kicks and...

He’s like a gentle breeze gone wrong
he wants but won’t push on
He warned I shouldn't dwell too long
On the worries in my head
“they will try to kill you” he said

And I wrote us such a story
and I hoped you felt the same
I knew you didn’t choose me
but I thought that that would change

Kicks and Giggles
and I think he dreams of skinny dipping
I told them you’re my soul mate
they told me that was strange
Insomniac
you saved me
I wish you could say the same

I liked having my hope restored
at the other end
of another long line.

I still remember his tortured dream
Until his dream became a party
and his life a twisted thing
I asked “where will you be in the next ten years?”
He says "I never felt I’d make it farther than here"

Kicks and Giggles
and I think he dreams of skinny dipping
I told them you’re my soul mate
they told me that was strange
Insomniac
you saved me
I wish you could say the same

Step back, hold on,
don’t be too lame to go for what you want
He lives at home
with his mom and his dad and stupid beer love

how long
will I wait for him
to come back to my side?
To come back to our side?

Kicks and Giggles
and I thought he dreamed of really living
I knew he was my soul mate
but now that seems so strange
Maniac
You saved me
In ways I can’t explain.

I wish that you had stayed the same
I wish that you were safe again

Kicks and Giggles
and you’ll always be my living angel


Its rough but if you knew him like I did you might get it. :) He has a nickname "Giggles" because he used to always say "for kicks and giggles" so yeah... that where that came from...