Cause We Know the Time is so Much of What's Lost

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These walls are too hard to climb and that latter is too hard to find I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE

Can't put my mind at ease with the words I say
Trying to get myself to get out of my way

Sorry I can't seem to stay
But this bird was meant to fly away

Break my dreams, that's what they'll do
Well I'm going to run away and learn to fly like you

Baby, is it pulling on you heart
Is it tearing you apart

Another day gone
A day closer to fate

Soon we'll find it's a little bit too late
Just go through life
Living on luck
Betting ten thousand to ten

When the day's come,
You'll say 'Why did I wait?'
You can't just leave your life up to fate.
You've got to turn it around
before it's too late.

And I'm caught between.
Myself and me.
And I,
Can't find the bridge
From my mind to reality.
I'm trying to find.
A place in the sun.
But I'm drowning in the rain
That's falling every place I run

In a way I'm giving up some of myself
In a way isn't that what it's about

I know there are walls we have to climb
I sit here waiting and yearning
Cause I know we can get by

I'm tired of running from my feelings
Are you listening
All I know is what I'm missing

beauty queen that you are
I'll put you down for a place in the stars
I'll take your picture for all the world to see

I'm dying inside
I know the way it should be

it's too late to get out
Or shed a tear for doubt

Reservation
is sneaking up on me
Was I mistaken
To let you get to me?
I've overtaken
In ways I've never known
So please don't break me
We've still got a ways to go

Cause I'm just a shadow of what I could have been
If the sun will rise tomorrow
Maybe I can begin again

Why are you waiting for what is left to know?
There's no reason we should standing still
Pick the destination and I'll pick the road

I see it taking you hold
You must let go before it starts
This confrontation you keep feeling is your heart
It's simple, but somehow letting go's the hardest part

Loving you
Like I never have before.
And needing you.
Just to open up the door.
If begging you.
Might somehow turn the tides.
Then tell me to

Struggle is the price you pay
You get just enough just to give it away

She's the picture
Of a heart of gold.
On the edge of depression unknown.

Sittin' on the corner of nowhere road.
Just between 'i wish I could',
And 'i don't know'.

There's a fine line
You walk everyday
'Cause somebody told you to
A white lie
You can't erase
Now you're gonna have to choose

I am, taking a chance
Walking with my laces loose
Wrapped up, taking the maze
That everybody's running through
I'm sick of, black tie
Nickel and dime

And every moment, extends endlessly
If feels as though time isn't moving
And every second, hold breath not to breathe

On the tightrope everything's bare
All that there is from here to there
On the tightrope the goal is quite clear
Don't lose yourself in your
Fear

"Give it all I've got" can be bittersweet

I heard them say that dreams should stay in your head
Well I feel ashamed of the things that I've said
Put on these chains and you can live a free life
Well I'd rather bleed just to know why I die

'Cause when the minutes seem like hours and the hours seem like days
Then a week goes by you know it takes my breath away
All the minutes in the world could never take your place
There's one-thousand-four-hundred-forty hours in my day

Have you ever stood outside a picket fence
You can see through
But you can't get to the inside

If only you could feel what I dream
Maybe you could hear what I mean
There is nothing gone
But there's something missing
Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath
And you're making it hard to breathe

Cause you've never really known
'Til you're all on your own
And the words come out all wrong
Oh you've never really known

I've carried it all too long
The fear of the pain it brings
Feeling the panic building up
I'd rather the broken heart
Than live in the emptiness
Of what if the world won't save me?
Even if the bow should break
Even if the blood runs cold
Nothing could be worse than numb

Let’s go out on the town
Give it a piece of your mind
You’ve been going round and round in your head
So don’t think twice
You’ll end up worse than you’ve been
You know I can’t ignore
So I don’t know what you’re waiting for
But you’re trying hard not to show it

Cause I know that you’ve been thinkin’ bout it
Well I know they think you’re out of your mind
All of this time
I know that you’ve been waiting for this

If you don’t mind me sayin’,
there’s no sense in waiting so
Shout it out,

She wakes and takes her place in line
And never bothers to ask why the mirror sheds no light at all
The days turn into lesser days until there's only night
The light it wouldn't help she's too far gone
Her time is up it's five o'clock
It never stops

The years go by, they're adding up
She clicks her heels but she's still stuck
She's giving in but won't give up she'll never stop

Time is a price we can't afford
An empty glass and an open door
You get what you paid for in sweat
And a voice that says please don't forget

Caught in a maze you can't escape
The flickering lights, and the colored lens
The walls that we build just close in
Until we decide to begin


Hey... IM GOING CRAZY! I NEED TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF WISCONSIN!

No Time or Mind to Chase After Fault

SO, I have found it harder than usual to adjust to the "same old, same old" routine this semester. My heart is not in my school work, not at all. I'm learning about interesting things, but I just can't focus on it. I really hope to get my feet on the ground eventually, to get some money saved up, to get some more acting credits, etc.

I'm going crazy about it. I have been applying to countless jobs with little to no response. I think that, while the number of views on my Inside audition was a big moral booster, it also upped all of my anticipation. I could see a glimmer of the shining dream that I have, but it was just out of reach. I'm restless, which is in some ways good, it keeps me focused on my career, but it also distracts me from the real world, which is constantly knocking at my door. I have midterms around the bend, no money in my wallet, etc.

I can only hope that I at LEAST get the role that I auditioned for last weekend, but I don't think that even that will suffice. I want more, and that is stupid of me.

Everyday when I wake up, I look into the mirror and ask myself, “If I was going to die tomorrow, would I still want to do what I’m going to do today?”, and if the answer is no too many days in a row, I know I need to change something

-Steve Jobs RIP

We're far beyond the place that we started

So my day off today was pretty good.

I woke up, did pilates and showered...


I then began work on my Shakespeare monologue. I did basic breathing exercises and vocal warm ups. I read through my shakespeare monologue using my best projection. I then did an over enunciated run through of it. After that I read through it following the pattern of iambic pentameter to find where the accents are meant to lie. That really warmed me up and got me in the flow of things.
Having warmed up and worked out the kinks in the monologue I started applying the 12 steps of the ivana chubbuck technique. The one I felt had the greatest impact was substitution. I know it is cliche but I made my confession of love be about acting. I have never experienced passionate love for another person so I worked with what I have and it worked. I suddenly felt emotionally involved and found new significance to some of the lines. I need to work through the scene further tomorrow with the same steps in order to firmly plant the ideas in my head. It felt like I was juggling too many ideas around in the end.
I filmed my monologue after a few hours of working with it. I think it shows some interesting changes but it is still not at the level I would like it to be. I think just a fresh start will help. I think I was too drained of energy from working with the same piece for so long.



After that I had lunch and read some more of An Actor Prepares, which I finally really started reading yesterday. It was a lot about physicality and releasing tension which I think is a good thing. It also commented on people who act to show off their beauty. I feel like I do that sometimes, meaning I won't give myself over completely to an expression before I look at myself in the mirror making the expression and tweak it so that it looks both pretty and realistic enough. This is a trap a lot of people fall into. I think my worst habits are ones that I actually picked up by watching certain actresses and unintentionally mimicking them. For example, the Olsen twins. They are gorgeous but they move their mouths and talk in a way that doesn't actually seem natural and true, its entertaining but not real. Nothing against them, I am totally in love with them and still watch their movies every easter (I don't know why easter...its just something I do).

After that I decided to start work on my voice. I sang out a few lines from a taylor swift song and was pleased with the result. I sing along to TSwift a lot in the car so my voice is very comfortable with her songs. I also worked on the Wicked song The Wizard and I. I think it went well but I couldn't get one solid take of it. I will try again tomorrow I think. I went to a work picnic and when I got home I did vocal singing warm ups and tried to tackle the song On My Own. I have always gone back to that song but I never feel completely comfortable with it. I think I have gotten closer today than ever before. I should definitely keep working with it. I also picked up my guitar again, but I couldn't find my tuner or capo which limited the number of songs I could play.



So that was my day off during which I focused on acting.

Making a success of the job at hand is the best step toward the kind you want.

-Bernard Baruch

Why? What does it matter?

I am going crazy!

I keep hearing about these amazing opportunities and I'm at that point of just waiting. Trying to be patient...but it is quite difficult.

I can't wait until I finally have a day off tomorrow and the next day. I will basically be having an acting bootcamp. I have books I need to read, excericise I need to do, monologues I need to practice, vocal excericises I need to do, guitar to practice and other various things. I'm hoping this will keep my mind off of the AMAZING opportunity I just found and am hoping to hear back on.

Of course I have to be sceptical because... I mean... if its too good to be true it probably isn't.

Anyways, the Vault contest ended on Saturday, but still no news. I know they said they had just finished a round of casting so maybe that explains the silence. The thing that sucks about this is that they make it sound like almost everyone is getting cast, so it makes it that much more depressing if you dont haha. Ah well. I am still iffy on the financial issue and who knows if I would actually be able to end up doing it in the end. I do have a sister getting married in Florida soon and school starting, both of which things are quite expensive... of course I could always hope that something comes up which makes the school issue go away.

"I don't think I can play any other way but all out. I enjoy the game so much because I'm putting so much into it."

-George Brett

Where did it start?

Hey there...

I can't seem to stay away for more than two minutes of late. So in case you haven't noticed, I want to be an actress. So I guess I will tell you how I got myself into this whole mess.

When I was in middle school I was (and still am) OBSESSED with Harry Potter. Trully. I sooo wanted to play Hermione not because I ever even thought of being an actress, but just because I wanted to be her. Well, clearly it was a little late to do that. First off, the Harry Potter producers made the decision not to cast American kids, and second because I was too young. I'm about a year younger than Emma Watson so I would have been 8 when they started filming.

So anyway, I guess that wanting to be in Harry Potter in general was my first step to becoming an actress. Second was my dream of meeting the stars, particularly Tom Felton :p I was obsessed cause he was a 10 year old's dream boat. I was talking to someone who I had met through a Tom Felton fan site (which was taken down because Tom Felton created an official fan site and wanted the domain name, something I will never forgive him for). Anyway, she suggested that I become an actress in order to meet him and I didn't really think about it, but I think that is what planted the seed. I was always wanting to be a part of the Harry Potter films and that seemed the only way to do it. So a couple months later I went on line and told her I had decided to be an actress and she said "hey, that was my idea" (I hadn't actually remembered that because, hey, I was 10).

So I told my family I was going to be an actress and I headed over to the half price book store and bought my first acting book. "Acting: The First Six Lessons". Maybe my dream of being an actress could have died away after I realized just how impossible it would be to get involved with Harry Potter, but it didn't because of this book. It is to this day my favorite acting book. It portrays acting as this beautiful craft that even actors foresake. It takes you back to the basics and sets impossible standards. I have yet to come anywhere close to finishing the "first lesson."

I did theater in middle school but even then I knew that was not what I wanted to be doing. High school theater, yes, but middle school? There was zero chance of that being an actual high quality performance. Other middle schoolers simply didn't understand what a serious business acting was and so would never be able to accomplish all that I dreamed of. Yes...

Well I did it anyway. It was just as crappy as I thought it would be and I did not want my family to watch it because I knew they would never take me seriously if they did. I was such a tortured child :p

SO years have gone by and acting took precedent over Harry Potter :)
Though it still is a silly old dream of mine to work with the actors from Harry Potter, and I like to believe that some day that will happen. However, as I develop as an actor I have realized that for me, it truly is about the craft. That hasn't always been the case, and I still sometimes lose sight of why I am an actress, but in the end I know my priorities are in line. I want to act because I love acting, I love the beauty behind the craft. I learn more about myself from each role I play. Fame is a means to an end. I don't think I would like being followed around and talked about like a piece of meat, but I know that fame would open the door for choice. I would be able to choose the roles I want and not be at the mercy of whatever is available. So far I have been blessed and the projects I have been a part of have been truly amazing but whenever I go to an audition I seriously think about whether or not I actually want to do the job. People tell you to take whatever jobs you can get in the begining, and I understand where they are coming from. However, I don't think I can, because my acting dream is not just to get work but to love my work and I need to put that before any dreams of success.

You may not always choose what you love, but you can choose how you love.

"To love without role, without power plays, is revolution."

Actually doing it

Hey so um remember when i said I was going to do a video of me performing something pre and post using the Chubbuck method. Well, hey, guess what!? I ACTUALLY am going to follow through on that.

So a couple days ago I recorded two monologues, one from All's Well That Ends Well, and the other from Girl, Interrupted.

Now I have been watching them and I am pretty happy overall, I mean I have recorded myself doing the Girl, Interrupted monolgue before and I think I have gotten a lot better. However, I still am not actually thrilled with my performance of that. I am really happy with the Shakespeare monologue, but I made a few mistakes and whatnot.

So I was thinking I would record them again, and here I was at work with nothing to do. I decided "oh I should use the Chubbuck technique on the monologues". So I have done it for All's Well That blahblah and... well I can't actually do it for Girl, Interrupted yet cause I haven't seen the movie, but I will. So anyway, I can't wait to post the post-Chubb videos. In the mean time here are my first drafts:

"Don't just learn the tricks of the trade. Learn the trade."

Don't Tell Me

Hey soooooo I think I have kinda sorta figured out that I could in fact move to California for a few months, it would be really tough... but it would be worth it. "Dreams come true, not free" and all. It won't be easy but its my dream, thats the best and worst thing about actors, they choose to live practically destitute because they dream of living in the lap of luxsury . Irony.

I still have to figure out the car thing, but I think that if I can get a cheap one I am good to go. Now I just have to turn my $400 into $4000 and I can get that car that I was looking at... mmm yeah... probably not gonna happen. We shall see.

Whether it happens now or not, I know I will move back out there and start living the life I have been thinking of for 8+ years. I think its a good thing that when I think of that life, I think of hard work and keeping busy, not just dwelling on the hope of getting a "big break"

Over and out

Pet Peeve

Yep, as you can see I am in another one of my frantic "I have to be acting now" modes which happen fairly often.

I have a pet peeve right now... which is:

Filmmakers not sending me copies of the project we worked on together.

I understand that Unborn probably never got finished, and thats fine, because they gave me footage for my demo reel and thats enough.

However, I am still waiting to receive a copy of The Dropout which I know is finished because... I watched it. I would really really really really love to put some footage from that on my demo reel because I was really happy with my performance, but alas here I am all forgotten. They promised they would send me one, the promised profusely. Plus, just to add to my despaire (ok I'm not actually in despair lol but this is a blog post titled "pet peeve" so I feel like I have to establish an appropriate amount of outrage to live up to it) they still have one of my shirts which I left on set. They had promised to send it along with my copy of the DVD.

Now I am "waiting, wondering, hoping" ... yup

OK. Byebye for now, my dear four subscribers who probably don't even read this blog anyway, but hey... my blog entertains me and thats enough.

Chickens and Eggs and Crap

So you know the phrase "don't count your Chickens before the eggs hatch"
I am dwelling on The Vault role because I know that if I get it I will need to completely rearrange my life. I'm always willing to do that, but there is still one issue that I can't find a solution to. It is the same problem I always have. No car. I need a car if I want to make money... I need money in order to buy a car. In Wisconsin its fine because I can borrow my family's cars but in Cali there is just my aunt and uncle's cars which I can only borrow when they don't need them, which I'm sure they usually do. I think I would regret it if I didn't take a job if it was offered to me... I'm just not so sure how practical it is.

If I could get financial aid, then I would continue classes online with the UW. I would live with my aunt and uncle. I would need to fly to Florida in early November for my sister's wedding. I would be bummed to miss Dean's wedding so I would have to try to get back for that, or maybe not leave until after that (Sept 10).

See what I mean?? I'm thinking way too much about a job that isn't even mine.

I think what it comes down to will be if I can get transportation that is reliable and how many hours of work my role would include. I obviously wouldn't move the California for 3 months to film for an equivalent of 48 hours of work... but maybe I would... what with it being my passion and all, it really depends on if my family is willing to support me financially yet again, something they do far too often. :( ugh I don't know. All I know is I want it.

"Do not try to push your way through to the front ranks of your profession; do not run after distinctions and rewards; but do your utmost to find an entry into the world of beauty"

The Vault

SO, I didn't get the part in Inside, but I did get over 1000 likes and 30,000 views! Which was amazing and the 100+ comments were awesome.

Anyway, Rachel L is the one who won and she let me know about the show The Vault which she had also been recently cast in. It looks really cool, and in a way reminds me of Inside... what with the people locked in rooms and all. It looks really high quality.

I entered to be cast and I'm waiting to hear now.

If I did get cast it would mean some series rearranging of money and time. I could move to california and live with Angie and Mike (my aunt and uncle) but I would need a car... which I don't have. Also there are two weddings coming up, one in September and one in November so I would need to be able to fly back for those.

It would be tough... but I can't help but wishing it would happen, despite the fact that it would mean me being in another situation where I will have to borrow a lot of money.

Anyways, in the mean time I recorded a couple of monologues today. I actually just memorized them today too so they were a little rough but I'm happy with them. I figured I should give the Vault casting directors more to look at when making their decision. You can check them out at my youtube channel, which you can also find at the bottom of the page on here.

Wish me a broken leg!

"On this narrow planet, we have only the choice between two unknown worlds. One of them tempts us --ah! what a dream, to live in that! --the other stifles us at the first breath. "

Terrible

Ok. So PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE watch this and like it if you like it and share it with people. This is a situation where the number of viewers actually matters a bit. I really like the idea behind this film! I can't wait to see what comes from it. Maybe I will write a more coherent post in the morning when I'm not overly tired. Thanks!

On another note:
I know I know! Why do I always just get started posting regularly again and then ditch! Turns out it is hard to talk about an acting career when actually participating in one :)

So the student film is long gone. I had an AMAZING time and got to try out some things I had never been able to before, actingwise. I think I definitely grew as an actress from doing that film and the cast and crew were fantastic.

I am still waiting for my copy of the DVD! I need to watch it again and sort out which bits I want for a demo reel.

Anyways I will be posting again shortly.

One More

Hey there.

So I got the script for the student film. I can't wait to start working on it. I think it is a great script. There is a lot of crying on my characters part... which is always nerve wrecking. I can't wait to meet the cast and get started. I am nervous as always, but I am sure it will be fun.

I am almost done reading The Power of the Actor which is exciting. It was a really great book! It took a long time for me to get through it, but all of the information was really helpful.

At some point I am going to start posting videos of me performing a scene from a play. I will post a performance of the scene after applying each step from The Power of the Actor. More details on that later, first I have to analyze my actual script.

Thats all I have to say for now.

About Me

Hey! I made this video today, for new people to my blog and youtube channel. It just has a little bit of background info and whatnot.

Thanks!

Robin

Hello! So in the book Auditioning by Joanna Merlin, she talks about how it is almost impossible to tell whether or not you will get a part. You may feel like you had a great audition and never hear anything, or you may think you have a terrible audition and get the part. I had never had an experience with this. For the first two films I was cast in, and all of the films I wasn't cast in, my guess was usually pretty close.

However, I am pleased to announce that I WAS cast in the role of ROBIN in the student film in Chicago!

I really did not think I would be cast, so this is quite exciting for me. It is a much larger role than I have ever played before. I am actually nervous about memorizing my lines because I am out of the habit.

Right now I am still waiting to receive the script, but they hope to start filming soon. I have FINALLY finished reading the first half of The Power of the Actor by Ivana Chubbuck, so I am excited to analyze my script using her 12 steps.

ANYWAY,

I have a habit of watching my videos OVER AND OVER again.
In some ways I think this is a good thing, especially when it comes to performances. I think it is important to critique my own work, to be both my own biggest fan, and my own biggest critic. Watching my Transfers audition for the 1000th time I see which parts of my performance worked and which parts really didn't. I have also learned more about filming my own audition. I am both super proud of my performance, and super mortified. I think it is great... and I think it is horrible.

No matter what though, I plan to post more videos of me doing scenes and monologues, not to show off my talent, but to discover my weaknesses.

I have watched a LOT of Youtube videos of readings by others. There are some people who have posted several videos, but don't seem to have improved in their performance over the years of performing. Their performances fall flat, meanwhile, their video blog posts are completely engaging and make me want to watch more of them. I hope I don't fall into a rut like that. I want to look back at old performances and see how I have improved as a performer. I want to make progress.

I wish I had videos of myself performing when I first decided to be an actress. I like to believe my performances have improved. There was one particular Youtuber who reminds me of myself when I was younger. She managed to move to LA and pursue an acting career, and she is doing a great job going to classes and putting herself out there. Part of me is jealous that I wasn't able to do that when I was younger, but another part of me thinks that staying at home and dwelling on the craft has been good for me. Now I know, because of my 8 years of devotion that this is something I really want to do, for both good and bad reasons.

Good reasons:
-I love acting
-I love the abandon I experience when being someone else
-I love how each role teaches me about myself, as a performer and as a person.
-I love reading and learning about acting almost as much as I like performing itself.

Bad reasons:
-..ok so I love attention
-I would love to date one of todays many dreamy actors

So I will talk to you later!

Self-help must precede help from others. Even for making certain of help from heaven, one has to help oneself.

-Moraji R. Desai

Transfers Audition

Hey, so it turns out I can post the video! So here it is... there are a lot of issues with it, but I think it is a pretty good performance in general.

Taking a Break

Hello

So, I am going to take a break from talking about acting just for one post.
I HAVE to talk about Wisconsin.

As you may know, I grew up in Wisconsin, moved to California for a semester and was forced to move back to Wisconsin for financial reasons.

At the time that seemed like a horrible thing, but now, I am so glad I am not missing this school year at Madison.

First, earlier in the year President Obama came to the UW to give a speech, which was so exciting.

Second, the "Teach Me How to Bucky" video was created which is hilariously awesome:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVAZXZfIlNk

Third, Badgers went to the Rose Bowl, we didn't win, but still.

Fourth, the Packers WON THE SUPER BOWL!

Fifth, I voted for the first time, and in an election which turned out to be very significant, not only for Wisconsin, but potentially for other state policies as well. Scott Walker has created a bill that will cut out "collective bargaining rights" for public employees. If you haven't heard about it you probably will soon. The Democratic representitives LEFT THE STATE to prevent the vote from taking place yesterday. Schools have been closing left and right because of teacher and student walk outs, the Madison school district has been closed for three days now. Also, I work right next to the Capitol and so when I look outside the window in my office, from ten stories up, I can see thousands of protesters and I can hear their music and their speeches. It is crazy!!

So I thought I would comment on all of that just because I am in awe, I am glad I am here to witness such an exciting year for Wisconsin.

I know I said I wasn't going to talk about acting.... but Im an actor... so I can't help it, so:

Tonight is opening night for Guys and Dolls eeeek. I will try to post pictures of me in my costumes!

Also, I am submiting a filmed audition for a pretty big project. I know for sure that it will be viewed by the producers, but I am not exactly what the description for the part was looking for. I think I am close enough to the description that they would be fine with that. I REALLY wish I could post the video for you, but I am not sure if there are legal issues with that for a bigger project like this. I think my performance was pretty good though. I mumbled a little at points and I realized I talked in the back of my throat a lot, if that makes sense to you. Anyway, I think it is a cool oportunity just to be seen by people who are higher up in the industry so I am excited about that.


OK, this is the longest post I have done in a while! I hope you enjoyed reading it.

We are not permitted to choose the frame of our destiny. But what we put into it is ours.

-Dag Hammarskjold

Wade Bradford's Tomorrow's Wish

Hello!

I am sick of feeling unproductive! SO I recorded me performing Juniper's monologue from Tomorrow's Wish by Wade Bradford. I had to cut down the monologue a lot, because you are usually given about two minutes to perform a monologue for auditions.

I hope you enjoy!

Stuck in a Rut

Hello!

Happy Valentines Day!

Well... I have been doing a few things lately.

First of all, rehearsals for Guys and Dolls are going well, I think it is going to be a great show. Tonight is the first dress rehearsal and we open on Friday night! The hot box dances are very cute, plus I get to wear a red wig for one dance and a blond wig for the other... its crazy!

Secondly, I had been auditioning for a student film in Chicago. I got two callbacks which is really exciting, but judging from the atmosphere at my last callback, I am not going to get the part. However, I haven't heard back, so maybe I am wrong.

So I have gotten myself into an aggravating situation. I REALLY want to be part of another film, but that just doesn't seem like it is going to happen because I will be going to France for a study abroad program from May 18 through the end of June. Most projects that are auditioning now are set to film during that time period. :( Also I am hoping to do another study abroad program for the fall semester in England. We will see about that.

As of right now, my plan is to study abroad in the fall and then graduate at the end of the fall semester of 2012. I will then work and save up money for 6-12 months in Wisconsin, while trying to get jobs in Chicago. When I have enough money saved up($5-10,000), I will move back to California. There is a light at the end of the tunnel my friends!

I hope all is well with you.

Never give up. Keep your thoughts and your mind always on the goal.

-Tom Bradley

Oh and also, GO PACK GO! Superbowl champs!